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Happy Birthday To Me

I turned 24 yesterday.  I’ll be honest, I wasn’t terribly excited about turning this new age.  Why?  It’s silly.  When I was younger (maybe 8th/9th grade) I had always told myself that by the time I turned 24, I wanted to be married and have a great job and be living my dream life.  24 was just “that age” for me, we all had one.  Once I hit 18 and went to college, I realized just how ridiculous my “plan” was, and didn’t think about it again for a long time and just decided to take life as it comes.  About a month before turning 24, I remembered that silly little plan and found myself quite sad.  I knew that it was ridiculous, but was also sad that it didn’t end up that way.

Yesterday, I decided to make the best of it, and take a “scary age” for me and make it into something fabulous.   I had an awesome night planned, and decided that the whole entire DAY was going to be awesome.  I took pictures of the various things I/we did, so be warned, this is picture heavy!

A few days before my birthday, I got this AMAZING package in the mail from Amanda!  Not only did she give me one of the best cards I’ve ever seen (side note: this birthday has held AMAZING cards from everyone… good work!), she sent me a book that I know I’ll love, more postcards and some makeup goodies!  She also sent me Season 3 of Bones to watch… but that one I’ll have to return to her.  Sneaky lady, she’s king of the lab for that one!

Amanda’s card: “A Birthday Fairy Tale.  Once upon a time, there was a princess who was like a size four or something.  She could eat and drink whatever she wanted and always stayed really skinny and had flat, firm abs even though she never went to the gym.  Every time she tried on jeans, the very first pair fit perfectly and made her butt look amazing.  She lived in a great big, beautiful castle with her handsome, multimillionaire husband, who was busy all the time buying her giant diamonds, taking her to Hawaii, giving her foot massages, and telling her how beautiful she was.  One day, she was eaten by a dragon and no one cared.  The End.”

Birthday day!  My dad likes to add little things to the calendar besides the numbers and the birthday cakes, so it was so cool to wake up and see not only the cake, but the little Phillies sign!

My mom is the best mom in the world, and she usually makes us breakfast for our birthdays or special occasions.  She asked if I wanted the works, but I said that all I wanted was these tiny little cherry pie things.  All it is is premade pie crust cut into circles with cherry pie filling thrown in the oven but GEEZ they are delicious.  I ate entirely too many, but it was my birthday, so calories didn’t count.

At some point in the morning, Mary sent me such a special email.  She told me a little white lie a while ago, and then surprised me on my birthday with something that made my heart soar (in such a geeky way).  I have no picture of what she gave me because it lives on my computer screen at the moment, but I do plan on printing it out and keeping it forever.  It made me feel so lovely, and I wish I could be that lovely in real life.

Before lunch, I opened up cards from my parents, brother and grandmoms.  So very nice.  I usually keep all my cards, and this year is no exception.

Will’s card (since the rest are gushy and personal): “A sister is someone who helps you through any trouble.  Because she’s probably the one who got you in trouble in the first place.”

Lunchtime!  We had a “very fancy” Wawa meal because we just wanted to get something in our stomachs before that night, and it was quick and easy so… there you go.  I got my favorite sandwich, and my brother added in my favorite chips and favorite Wawa iced tea!  Speaking of my brother…

… that’s right.  He got me princess Silly Bandz for my birthday.  I’m so glad he didn’t spend a ton of money and just got me something silly instead.  We discovered these a week or so ago and are fascinated.  I bought us a rock ‘n roll set, and I was so happy to have gotten the princess set.  Yes, I’m obviously regressing.  They’re just so pretty!

It was almost time to head out to the game, but before that…

… my best friend Kristen came over!  She was coming to the game with us, so we decided to all take one car.  She brought me TWO beautiful cards (one silly, one heartfelt, as per usual with us) and this gorgeous box from Russia.  She lived there for a year teaching English and has brought me so many amazing goodies from there.  Amber earrings, beautiful postcards and now this keepsake box!  I have to find something super special to keep in there.

One of Kristen’s cards: “Friends like us understand how important it is to recognize birthdays.  Count, no.  Recognize, yes.”

Game time!  We were seated in the very first row of the 400 level and you know what… it was AWESOME.  We could see the game clearly and had perfect seats for fireworks.  (Let’s all thank my dad for that one.)   Our whole group was me, my mom, my dad, my brother, Kristen, my cousin Larisa, her husband Colin and my aunt and uncle.  So. much. fun.  I asked for them to not tell the Phillies it was my birthday because then they throw confetti at you, so we just pretended that my name was up on the big screen when they were going through the list.  The best part that really made it feel like my name was up there?  “Last of the American Girls” was playing.  I got such a happy from that.

Once we hit midway through the game, it wasn’t looking so good for the Phillies.  The game was 7-1 in favor of the Reds, so we were all kind of resigned that nothing was really going to happen.  That’s a LOT to make up.  So the fact that the Phanatic dressed up as Gaga and danced with a dance academy to “Telephone” was a real bright point.  It was SO funny!

And then… the game completely changed.  It was pretty much a birthday miracle.  Bottom of the ninth, the Phillies got six runs to tie the game!  Bottom of the tenth… another two to win it.  It was so unreal.  Two birthday wins in a row.  Last year: a win and an inside the park home run.  And fireworks.  This year, another win, a foul pole home run and MORE fireworks.  I think my birthday is lucky or something.  And I’m pretty sure you’ll all know where to find me next year.

Please excuse the blur, I was doing this handheld and was more concerned with enjoying the show than getting a fabulous picture of it.  The fireworks were, once again, out of this world.  And I like to pretend that they were just for my birthday.  Or, you know, America’s birthday.  Whatever.

After the game, Kristen came home for a sleepover in my bed with me, and we watched an Olsen twins movie, New York Minute.  It was just like when we were kids!  I went to bed with a full heart, thankful that my birthday turned out to be such an amazing day.

As it turns out, my birthday wasn’t quite over yet!  I got this absolutely beautiful card in the mail today from Megan and Jason, and it just reminded me how good I really do have it.  Thanks for the mini birthday extension, you two, it was awesome!  I love what Megan wrote in the card, “I predict that this year will be one of your best yet on a couple of levels, so don’t sweat getting any older.”  I swear, sometimes that girl knows me better than I know myself.

I’m so thankful that so many of you remembered my birthday!  It was so wonderful, I’m truly blessed.  I went into that day preparing to still tell people that I was 22… and came out of it thinking that maybe 24 wouldn’t be so bad after all.  Thank you to: Dad, Mom, Will, Kristen, Grandmom, Babcha, Mary, Larisa, Colin, Chocha & Vuyko, Megan, Jason, Marika, Uncle Harry & Aunt Barbara, Nikki, Lisa, Hayley, Liz C., Amanda S., Amanda B., Nik, Matt, Melissa, Fran & Joanne, Michal, Megan H., Carolyn, Devon, Eric, Michael T., Jess, Doug, Hannah, Michele, Davey, Allison B., Pete, Susie, Nicole, Erin K., Chris, Tom, Pat, Mandy, Katie L., Maeve, Nancy, Sarah M., Uncle Raym & Aunt Sally, Aunt Terry & Uncle Larry, Aunt Stacy, Morgan, Jo Anna, Jasmine, Lenora, Leah, Georgia, Alysha, Erin, Elise, Tobey, Sarah… and anyone else that I may have missed!  Thank you for the best day I’ve had in a long time!

The Lovers

Mary and I exploded each other’s formsprings recently, with questions about life, love and beyond.  One question we asked each other was, “What kind of person do you see each of us ending up with?”  We love to joke about famous people and dating them… which is ridiculous and we know that.  So it was interesting to see what kind of people we each thought we’d end up with in real life.  Our answers are pretty similar, and I know we’d both be lucky to end up with someone half as great as these fictional word-men are.

Mary’s take:

Yours is tall, dirty blonde, blue eyes, and shows you his love in the way he holds you. Mine is tall, dark hair, green eyes, and shows he loves me in the way he whispers in my ear. Yours will laugh when you buy a new pair of shoes and join forces with me when we want you to see a scary movie. Mine will poke fun of me when I do idiotic, gross things and join forces with you when I need to leave my computer and do something real.

They’ll be friends with each other but will also have times when they can’t stand each other. They’ll love both of us but will sometimes resent the other for the times they want to spend with one of us but can’t because the two of us would rather have BFF time. Yours will challenge you to be a better person and will challenge you to love yourself as much as he loves you. Mine will challenge me to let go and live free and challenge me to understand that I am worth everything he gives me.

My take:

I see us with very similar, but very different men, just like the two of us. Smart, strong and caring, definitely men and not boys. They know when to joke and when to act like an adult. They’re handsome, and will always come home to us. Mine’s a bit more on the quiet side, yours is a bit more of a badass. They will obviously be friends. They like sports and will encourage us to try new things. Yours likes XXX Vitamin Water, so when you buy a pack, none will go to waste. Mine likes the Lemonade. Yours will treat the group to Rock of Ages, mine will treat to Giselle. Mine will love you and yours will love me, even when we’re difficult and petty. Yours is a tall, skinny white boy. Mine is a tall cowboy. (We all know I love the cowboys. Facepalm.) Yours has dark hair and mine has light. They will be wonderful fathers and husbands, and leave work early sometimes to surprise us. Yours will buy you books, mine, shoes. They will be perfect. Not perfect overall, but perfect for us.

Pretty similar yet different enough that I want a combination of what I described and what she described.  Minus the scary movies.  Hey, fictional word-man, if you’re out there, call me.  I’d be interested in speaking with you. -smiles-  If you have a formspring or know someone who does, you should ask this question of someone.  It’s interesting to see who they think they’ll be with and who they think would be right for you.  What do you think of where our minds are?  Think I’ll end up with someone completely opposite?  Don’t care?  Let me know!

Adventureland = Love

Warning, spoilers lay ahead.

I wanted to see this movie when it came out in April, but somehow just couldn’t find the time.  This past weekend I decided to just rent it and… I want to watch it all the time.

I’m in love with Adventureland.

I almost can’t find the words to tell you how much I am in love with this movie.  I put it in the DVD player, expecting it to just be a cute coming-of-age story… and in some ways it is… but it is SO much more than that.

It’s not necessarily the best movie ever made… but something in it reached out and grabbed me.  I can’t say that I’m complaining.

I really, really, REALLY related with Em.  I’m not sleeping with a married man and eating pot cookies at an amusement park that I work for.  My parents aren’t divorced and I don’t have a troubled home life.  Yet I still related to her.  She almost doesn’t want to be noticed, just wants to exist, but stands up for the people that deserve it.  She asserts herself when she wants to, but is also wants to blend into the background.  She makes mistakes, messes up and blames herself too harshly for them.  I so identified with this… it’s what I do.

Add in that with the fact that Bill Hader and Kristen Wiig are hysterical and you have a movie that I will love for a while.

I can only hope that my James won’t give up on me either.

I was having trouble expressing my love for this movie, so I’ve enlisted the help of Amanda.  Click here to go to her blog, she’s fabulous.  [A, if you direct me to some pictures of you, I will link you for real on the sidebar!  S.] I twittered about Adventureland and she responded, so she’s pretty perfect to do a followup on what SHE thought.  Which is pretty much in line with what I thought.  Which is why I stole it from her.

“for me, it’s how they go about existing. they all have shit to deal with; don’t we all? i love em. i can relate to em. no, i’m not her, and i’m not living her life. but i understand wanting to blend in and stand out at the same time. i can understand blocking yourself off emotionally, because i have friends that do it, and i do too. i love james; i love that he wants something more out of life, and is willing to pursue it. right now, that need is almost an innate one for me. college sucks, but i will make it through. then what? get some hateful job i hate and live the life my parents have? no thank you. i love joel-so much. i love the line about henry melville, even though i hate melville and am an english major. ‘i hope someone spells my name wrong when i die too’ – awesome. i love the end. love.it.”

I love this movie.  Amanda loves this movie.  I’m going to watch it again when I get home.  I have it rented for now, until Wednesday night, but I think I’m going to buy it as soon as I can.  Adventureland is love.

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This is a truly personal post.  They will be few and far between.  If you don’t have anything nice to say, please just refrain from commenting on this.  Thank you.

I had an amazing, wonderful dream last night.  Even now, almost 12 hours after waking up, it’s slipping from me.  I think a part of me wishes that it would.

The dream was so beautiful.  It was pure love.  My chest felt full when I woke up, the way you feel when you’re around someone that you care for deeply.  I felt like everything was okay.  That I was loved as everyone deserves to be loved.  It was so wonderful.  I remember what his face looked like.  It was SO familiar… yet I can’t place it.  It feels like his name is on the tip of my tongue, but at the same time, it’s just not there.  It’s horribly frustrating, because last night, he loved me.

That’s why I think a part of me wishes that the dream would fade away.  It was like having something you want so badly dangled in front of your face, only to wake up and find that you’re feeling exactly the opposite.  I’m not desperate for love, or a romance, at all… but after so long on my own, it’d be nice.  I guess, to put it simply… I’m not opposed to a relationship.  I’m not going crazy trying to find one, but I wouldn’t be opposed.

I’m so lonely.  I want what that dream held.

My hand searches for your hand
In a dark room
I can’t find you
Help me
Are you looking for me?